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Heyyyyyyyy, i'm back again!!

               So school has started like, it almost two weeks now. I don't know, it's good to know that finally, I don't have to wake up early, rushing, sleepily go to school, trying hard to focus in class, and go back home so late, and tired and exhausted, and couldn't resist the urge to enjoy life and take a chill pill and forget about those stressing pressure thought about spm and study and books. Ugh, it even sucks cause I was in boarding school. So I have to manage my schedule wisely, and obviously, i stressed out every single minute. There's a lot to be done and I can't imagine, my friends who carried a much more responsibility than me. They must have thought about commit suicide every second lol.

                And now. Look how different is my life. How everything is totally upside down. I have plenty of time now A LOT. Like it's just two weeks ago school started, and now i have no idea what to do next as if i did everything that i've been waiting for. I sleep all day all night, eating non-stop, fooling, taking my pleasure time watching tv (all mine), scrolling my ig twitter lifelessly, reading books. yes, i have been waiting for these moments for freaking 11 years, and now i get it.

               Frankly speaking, i miss school, despite how bad my school life is, how bad school treated me. like, school is the convenient place where you meet great people; your lovely bitchy friends (i love them all, honestly), your kind and caring teacher, where you had all the fun of life. where you actually grow up. and living in a boarding school really taught me everything. it showed me how bad life can be, how hard, how suffocating to survive out there, how more challenges and obstacles you might have to face as you're growing up. nothing is easy, and every single step of difficulties that you faced, it didn't kill you. it builds up your mental, preparing for a better battle, a tougher test. 

               Thinking about school, i really miss studying. 16 & 17 are the best years of my life, yeah i was so far apart from my family, from all the fun of freedom, from the sweet moments i should have outside, instead of staying in a boarding school. but it was really lit. In boarding school, it showed me what a friend is. the real meaning of friendship. it made me realized how many fake friends i have and why you need a warm shoulder to cry on, and why you can't stand alone even though how strong you are. I found out that i'm really into studying and i love to learn and love my booksss so much except for certain subjects haha.        

               my friends helped me a lot. without them, i am so sure that i can't survive in that school. we've gone through so many hardships and problems, it made us closer. they helped a bunch in my study, they helped me to score so well. i am more than thankful, for having such a lovely friends, for getting the chance to know great people and be inspired, and had the best experience of my life. hahaha i bet that one day if i read this once again, i'm going to burst out. when i was in boarding school, i used to be like "why on earth i came to this hell", and at the end, it was a place that i would never stop missing. 

               To all kids out there, cherish the moments. School days might be stressful, with homeworks and classes but trust me, you're going to miss the joy one day. Treasure everything while you still have it, it once in your life :)

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