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Heyy, guess what? I'm back!

        I always want to write back. I kinda miss it. But well, I just keep on saying 'later la' until next and next day lol. Whole past 2 days, I was thinking of writing honestly. I just can't bare with all the malasness. So actually, one of the things that distract me from writing is because I lost my spec!!!! you know, I thought it was the end of the world. I couldn't even know how to breathe, lol no. I just worried too much, yeah it's expensive and ugh just don't want to put myself in a situation where your mom keep on asking where's your spec, and if I said I don't know and it's such a killer sentence bcs after that she's freak out and said "how can you said that you don't know?! you have to find it!!", and do you ever got to a circumstance where you did search for that freaking thing in every inch and IT'S JUST NOT THERE!!! IF IT'S THERE THEN IT'S NOT CALLED AS LOST, and your mom just doesn't care and would rather let you search at the same place for 47520457280 times even she know there's nothing there. and in the same condition where your dad gave you this furious look and about to blow up and you standing, clueless and about to bury yourself under the ground. it sounds so terrifying right, you know what I feel.

so let's forget about that cause after two days, my cousin really saved my life!!! she confirmed that I left it in her house lol, I did scold myself for not resisting my carelessness and forgetfulness. don't remind me about this okay, I was so much time and effort to find it. I just knew it today.

        So yesterday I was watching some several vids on youtube, seeking for some good songs, hunting for some funny vids and did I mention that I'm a big fan of magcon boys?!!! oh no, not really that FAN, but I do like shawn mendes, cameron dallas, nash grier, jack johnson, jack gilinsky and oh my god!!!! they're just-slaying it. and I don't really care about the rest of magcon-sorry not sorry. So I was freaked out to know that cameron finally posted a new video!! I've been waiting for sooooooo long and I just miss to watch his vid. so you can watch it here cutie cam yucks  and I was watching on my laptop, in an appropriate way. I mean like I don't sit properly. I put my laptop on a pillow above my lap and I was sitting at the very edge of my bed. I was holding my laptop so that it won't fall. if I raise my hand, and rip my laptop. a little throwback, my mom would always scold me for not placing my laptop properly. I like to put my laptop at edge of everything hahaha she keeps on getting mad and I was like "it won't fall if you don't scream", lol

        and yeah, obviously I was enjoying my cams moment and the vid was ughhh I hate to see extreme stuff that can hurt yourself, like watching someone jump on the bed and get his head knock to wall and bump, broke his bones on the ground. I just can't bare watching them getting hurt, cause I'll like I'm the one who's dying. At 2:41, I was taken aback, my heart almost burst out of its place and  unconsciously threw my hands aways from my laptop and that moment MY LAPTOP WAS SLIDING DOWN AND IT WAS ALMOST THE MOMENT OF DANGG SOUND and I quickly grabbed my laptop before everything is over and my heartbeat was speeding so fast and it was as my heart explode as I turned out to be a hero saving my dear lovely laptop from breaking into pieces. It was an unbelievable situation, and my jaw hung open for seconds. Trying to figure what happened just now, and either I saved my life of not. This is no joke. My heart was hurt badly, to know that I lost my spec, and now it would shred my heart into tiny piece if I lost my laptop next.

        Should I blame cam? Oh no, he's too dork for that. no I'm kidding. so yeah, that's it. Actually, I was figuring to write about something else, nothing related to this one. but never mind, I'll write it later. It's kinda sensitive and touchy touchy and I'll be off to Perak tomorrow, for three days and I don't want to spoil anything. I don't know if I even have a reader, so if you're reading this, thank you so much. I really appreciate your willingness to read my story which is crapzzz. I'd write more, and sorry for not posting for a while. If you guys have some good topics for me to write on, feel free to leave a comment, a shoutout or even a butterfly kiss (I'm not even sure what it is), just let me know okay? I'd highly appreciate it, thanks.